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April 7, 2017 at 4:50 pm #296288
I am very grateful that today I made two session for total of 6.5h. Both session started with losing stacks at nl400+. First session I lost 3BI on nl600. I didn’t play perfect BUT I was playing Okeish / Good depending when. Overall it went smoth, yesterday was working on my game. I guess I let the rage go for a while and I am fine doing what I was doing. Still didn’t fight for lobby that hard at lower stackes, I wanted to be sharper and more rested when the action came and I was.May 11, 2017 at 10:31 am #305341
Well, didin’t write anything for a long. long while. Many stuff happened, this one of these:
I was both excited and terrified at the very same time.
The other reason why I didn’t write is after I came back I was working very hard, grinding a lot, etc. And just didn’t have too much time, yet I am almost done with one project that was real pain in the ass. Also I went wild since last December and gained like 12kg…. I used to have 82.5kg at Decemeber, at 1st of May I had 94.2kg and now 90.3kg (lost mostly water so no big ahs about my cutting fat, since this weak I can really count how it works)
Gridning, finishing my projects and about to start work on my game again in following days.
Wish you GL at the tablesMay 12, 2017 at 9:21 am #305519
Join date: 2014/10/16
'Excellence is not an act but a habit'May 12, 2017 at 9:34 am #305520
Ty 🙂May 29, 2017 at 4:28 pm #309010
1) I am very unhappy about my yesterday game btw. At nl400 I had clear Shove Jam AI on the River but somehow was afraid of going for full stack. SUPER SUPER LAME REASON:
2) Yuppi I got my database back!!
May 29, 2017 at 4:39 pm #309016
Join date: 2015/12/17
Lovely graph, so smooth!May 30, 2017 at 5:04 am #309147
Thanks, yet it supposed to be higher 🙂May 30, 2017 at 8:27 am #309201
Join date: 2017/03/20
Wow that graph looks so beautiful!
Congrats on a great achievement. Very motivating!May 30, 2017 at 12:54 pm #309261
Thanks. Glad you like it 😉
Had very nice month. My hands were shacking from excitemnt I’ve earned 13 560k Euro Playmoney this month after expenses, hard to say how much on average I spend because I simply don’t care, buy everything what I want, doing private BJJ trainings most often twice weekly, doing physical theraphy each weak and so on. Manged it with 127h and 49min playing for this month. There is a ton of shits I have to improve at my game but overall I am excited about month. Playmoney are always nice! 🙂June 2, 2017 at 9:22 am #310114
Damn was happy like a child. Still very hard for me to bluff River in 3bet Spots at nl1k or so. I mean putting all your money, on some of those spots are super, super profitable but waiting for them to fold….. :O Anyway was soo hapy when he folded….June 22, 2017 at 11:21 am #314297
Couldn’t sleep, was moving at my bed for 1.5h decided to wake up and grind 7.5h session, lately had some travels so I am still down when it comes to grind hours needed. Anyway till the end of the month not playing nl600 and nl1k. Today won like 20 BI at nl100 (what is a good thing), won like 2-3BI at nl200 and lost 8BI at nl1k and 3 and nl600, certainly not a way to do it. Got busto at one poker room, so though fuck that shit. I am start to tilting when someones join in at nl600 because this month is like this (not a way to do it, def better to win at high and lose at low) so I am going to calm down grinding and chill till the end of the month.June 25, 2017 at 8:28 am #314804
Print Playmoney GOGOGOGOGOGOGO:July 20, 2017 at 9:34 am #323225
There are soo many stuff I have to improve at my game, I clearly see while battling higer. I see how much stuff I do not know, how much my ranges are messed, how bad I do shift my ranges based on reads and I am glad I see it all. I gotta be focused on all of it. It was weird when in like hour I’ve lost like 3-4k Euro. Anyway you always got two sides of one coin.
Of course I am not positng bad graphs!
November 2, 2017 at 2:53 pm #359453Today I am super happy and extremely excited. I’ve realized that I failed at two of my goals this year. First I failed at meditating two years straight. Totally my fault, got drunk not on other peoples party but invited friends, got drunk, drunk too much (because of downswing) and fall down and felt asleep. I failed at 689 days meditating every single day (it was like 3-4 continents, many times at the plane, many times drunk or high (not last time thought)). The 2nd thing I’ve realized was I failed at something that I was afirmatting myself almost twice daily for last 13 months. Since my travel to USA a lot of stuff changed and since then I started affirmations. Last week I gave up on it (afirmation supposed to be till my BD) because didn’t see any way that I can succeed at it. What I’ve realized that even though I made a huge goals for myself (for the point I was in life) I’ve achieved 66.9% of this goal. While doing so I’ve increased my totall BR by 224.7% in like 13 months. This made me realize how huge success I achieved and that there is no way that I am going to give up on affirmation. What I’ve realized is that there is no way I am going to give up on affirmations, especially that spewed a lot of money on USA / Hong Kong / Peru and some other smaller trips in those 13 months. What is funny is that the way how my BR increased is very lame, unsexy and completely not in a ways that I expected. My afirmations didn’t say a shit about way of getting it but as long as money are comming I am fine even with most lame ways as long as they come withing my values.The best part is that 3 new books arrived today, the smell of new books, oh my Good. Life is so fucking awesome. Variance helped me with last month. I never, ever had losing month, was trying to keep it to myself because I don’t like to bitch about my problems to other people, however every time someone asked me about my results I gave him honest answer, I hated every one of them, it kicked me in the balls every single fucking time, I hated it. So after not having a single losing month in my carrier like 4 years or os (since blog started) according to sheet I had one month that showed something like -17.500k Euro losings and 4 months of losing money…… It was hard as fuck to endure through it but no one said it’s gonna be easy. Probably most frustrating point was when I had nl600 reg who were beating my ass, keep taking lobby and put me on huge tilt. He fucking forced me to become my nemesis and my enemy. After a month of hard work and a few BIs I’ve learned how to crush this fucker, he lost -1.5BI and quit me, no action since…. Lately HU showed me it’s worst side, got fucked by two players together, against me, they even said it at chat room did nothing, yet they really crushed me, I really played bad against their strategy (two different ones) Got buttoned a fucking lot BUT I DID FUCKING ENDURED IT. The last month (even though came back from Hong Kong at 08.10) ended up with profit of ~ 28 465 Euro booking biggest month in my history. I am soo fucking greatfull for people close to my who helped me with enduring it and who inspired me.The best part is I was literally ready to do everything I had to do to start winning again, I started but the hard steps I made are going to be pushed forward. There is no moving back only forward. I’ve been so much inspired lately, at my BD I am going to create new affirmations even bigger and I am gonna do everything I can to achieve them. I have to learn better to thrive during chaos. I love that I spend quality familly time, that I have an awesome relationship with girl I love and that I have awesome friends with whom I can spend time. I know that I am going to pay the price for traveling and doing stuff with more chaos, but well, chaos is a big part of life and I am starting to stop battling it. I am setting up myself for even bigger goals and I feel bloodlust.November 6, 2017 at 3:04 pm #360474
Join date: 2019/09/07
Congrats Ilidek sounds like an amazing month and feeling to crush the reg. I love your videos in the intermediate, I feel you always asked questions I would have liked asked if I was there even if it annoyed Gordon a little haha :p
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