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  • #280284

    nubson
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    Hi ! REeally good blog! keep it up! Maybe soon someone will realase full metal keyboards so will be able to keep it for longer than 1month!!! GL 

    #280285

    Dlecheff
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    Pretty nice graphs man. Keep up the good work !

    #280286

    kubazaszywacz
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    CFP Student

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    Join date: 2015/10/09

    Hey man, good luck!
    Crush games, not desks. 😀

    #280287

    TakeMeMonies
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    Join date: 2014/10/16

    Inspiring mindset. Keep pushing, never stop.

    'Excellence is not an act but a habit'

    #280289

    IllYA KALASHNYK
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    Join date: 2013/02/03

    Amazing volume of play and results!

    P.S. That quads shit just made my stomach hurt 🙂  

    #280296

    lombardimaowz
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    Join date: 2015/11/07

    Keep up the good work.

    Desks are rake in poker so all good!

    #286888

    Ilidek
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    Forum heads up coach up to NL 1000

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    Join date: 2013/03/20
    Ok so February Post that I couldn’t post because of issues about password at this forum. Anyway restarted it I hope this shit won’t log me out.
    So February Summary:
     
     
    I am done for that month. Got kind of tilted. Not that bad when it comes to playmoney earnings:

    With RB, investments (+4k EU) made more than 20k this year of Euro Playmoney. Quite good months, put a lot of hours and I am very glad of my improving winrate, especially that I am battling regs for lobby, and I am spewing here and there. Pretty unhappy about volume though, only 111h at the tables ;<
     
    @This Month Post:
     
     
     
    This was my biggest test so far when it comes to challenge. I do not have commit partner (he decided to quit) I do not have coaching for profit deal. I was working on my own and for myself. I grinded a bit more than 400h but I reminded myself that once I went out to shop for 3-4 min for something to eat and few times I had sex meantime session, while once I did not subtract it (I know I know non professional grinder…. :P). At the begging of those commitments maybe I would be happy about hours I sit at the tables and work I’ve done but when I think about it I am not. I can do way, way better than that. I can do soo much more and I have to go for it.
     
    In the meantime I was testing something that made me crazy emotional, was cravings and eating sugars, gained 10kg, spewed like crazy and was in between being ill and healthy, it was around December. It made me not able to work for few days but those all are lame excuses. I can do soo much more than I did. I’ve learned some stuff. I am glad that I was working hard since day 1 I am not happy that in the middle I fucked up but yeah, this is life and I have to improve and grow as a person. 
     
    I am thrilled about my future goals, I am can’t wait for next 100 days challenge because I feel like this time I really going to kick some ass rather than some lazzy ass job, anyway it will need to wait because in some time we are going to trip to Itally. Kind of excited about that and until than I have to work on some stuff, small fires that I had during commits that had te be done to free up my mind on more important stuff. GL at the tables! 
    #286889

    Ilidek
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    Asked support for help, this shity system of posting stuff on this forum didn’t let me replay for messages… Jesus never saw as bad and unfuctional forum ever. Who needs some fancy looking options, when he can’t use simple ‘[jpg]’ or just coppy someone nick and make answer

    @Ivan BPC
    Happens 🙂

    @haliych
    Glad you like it

    @claher
    They are more often on other blogs, BPC has soooooo fucking stupid idea of disconecting you every 2nd week and I forget about passwords etc. However on big summary I’ve made it 😉

    @hugocabret
    Will do

    @Gonchan
    Gonna do!

    @tyradiel
    Working on it!

    @nubson
    Haha doing it! I’ve bought keyboard for 1k that is metalic, will see how its’ going to work!

    @dlecheff
    Ty I am gonna

    @kubazaszywacz
    Thanks. HAHA good one!

    @StephenHaim
    You bet, I am keep pushing!

    @MR. Greed
    To be hones I think what I did are lame volume and lame results. I can do soo much better just need to move my lazzy ass and fix my mental issues.

    @lombardimaowz
    Hahah yeah kind of higher rake than average guy but still doing my shit.

    #288037

    Ivan BPC
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    Yeah, indeed. And it’s funny when it does, it’s rare and I just love to see those, tnx for posting it 🙂

    #294732

    Ilidek
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    @Ivan

    YW 🙂

     

    Well this month was completelly deserved failure. After commitments I got lazzy, I woke up 2h latter than usual, I go to bed 4h latter than usuall watching some BS, cut meditation from 20min to 10min daily along with many other stuff like overspending, grinding way less, room renovation, and other silly excuses I ended up having negative balance at the end of the month after my spending. So what I am more than 2k euro bellow EV, so what that I run into many sick spots at nl1k, so what I am running very bad at nl400+ all those are stupid excuses, while the reason is quite obvious I fucked up I got billed by it. I am ready to accept it and work hard to turn things around. I was fucking around and get what I deserved. I am going to make up for that month not once, not twice but three times as much as I fucked up. Since next commits I am going to increase average grind by 5h and I am going to ready for what is comming next.  Doing Two Months for around 10k euro Playmoney should make me move forward not backward, even if I spend ~3k euro, I am 2k bellow EV and all that crap, got what I deserved by not working enough.

    #295773

    Ilidek
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    Today I got a really meaningful moment while playing at the tables. I was battling with very annoying guys for lobby. In my 4h session 3 different people at different softs were my compete with me for lobby and I lost with all of them. I lost because even though they quit me my mindset crushed, for a little bit. I let my ego dictate me how I feel during the battle. I was keep saying over and over again something like: “How, this stupid soon of a bitch, who x/r Flop 20%, steal 100% with Cbets of 80/70/70 and 3bet of 35% can dare to play with me, doesn’t he seem I crush him range over range? How can he even fight, she’s so stupid” When I was stupid and I was one who lost.

    When I don’t get to deal cards it doesn’t matter how well I am playing or dealing with anything. In his eyes I was a guy who open raise, call 3bet, call Flop, fold Turn like 90% it didn’t look like great startegy. Same was with Cbet/Call Flop, Fold Turn. Check/call, Check/Raise, Bet/fold River. I was just huge nit who happens to overfold everywhere. He was doing everything great, maybe he even had hands, hard to say because most runouts was in his favour. I lost because I should just quit and rest, I should let him have lobby for one day and take it the very next day, but well there is the thing. I hate to give up, which is great but now I got played, not by someone but by myself. Today I had very aggressive opponents, for whole 4hours, for ~1800 hands I was under huge pressure, without rest, without breaks. And it’s funny, how much I deserve everything I got. I fucked up last month, even though I forget to count like 3.5k Euro withdraw from BR it was still bad month. I want to make it up so I push myself more. I push myself more so I go at the edge more often, one time I am fine the other I fall down. Today I felt down.

    It was the first time when I was crying after the session. I didn’t have tears but my voice was like person who was crying I was tearing my hairs out and was doing other shit. I hit the edge and it wasn’t as bad as I though. Yeah I lost money, 1-3k euro, hard to say. Yeah I injured my hand, my leg, destroyed desk and keyboard. But I am alive, I am doing fine, all I had was just me shaking for 5min, 5 more minutes moaning, than I fight back. Ordered new desk, send email regards keyboard, ordered breakfast (my hand is not super useful, right now, even writing or moving mouse makes pain) so in like 10 min I was again in the game, fighting with myself, fighting for my goals and for my desires. Today happens something that I was always afraid off. After losing few BI in a row. I had a rage quit and was quitting table. During this time 230bb deep I faced 4bet Jam from crazy fish (or reverse bumbhunter) who went nuts everywhere and snapped him with JJ and lost to QQ. After that someone new joined on nl400 with full stack and donk/call, donk Jammed me with Turned Flush, vs mine Top pair Top3rd Kicker + OESD /GS + Overcard on drawy board. Those stuff hapened when I rage quited after next reg was fighting for lobby (5th or 6th) after I lost like 4-6BI to some retard and was at the edge while quitting and I let my daemon take control but I took it all back in literally like 10 min. Know my mistakes, failed last month, world wanted to show me that there is not that easy to turn failure into win and I can get burned while doing it. I guess for the first time in my life I guess I kind of accept it while working on it. I am going to work on it, as I did, if not harder but I am going to keep in mind that I am paying for my mistakes and failures.

    On the photo is not that visible but bellow my small finger I have like 3cm bump, that is going to remind me about those lesson for a while, whenever I am going to use my right hand:

    Here is how my desk and grind room looks like after my little renovation:

    Btw, just brilaint track:
    http://listenonrepeat.com/watch/?v=v2Iv1jAQZ5Q#Lo_Air_-_Day_And_Night

    Listen it with neighbors for over a week now.

    #295779

    TakeMeMonies
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    Good fight, we learn a lot from you. Thank you for posting and inspiring us to push ourselves further.

    'Excellence is not an act but a habit'

    #295829

    Ilidek
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    Join date: 2013/03/20

    @TakeMyMonies 

    I am glad, kind of have a feeling that there are guys from whom you can learn more. Not sure what’s better. Someone who struggle and fight with himself for like 3-4 years or someone who goes smothly for his goals. Anyway I am keep earning more on yearly basis so I am happy about it 😉

    #295847

    alditalk
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    Join date: 2013/04/13

    Hi man, what you doing??? 

    anger

    #295902

    Ilidek
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    Hello Dimi, doing very good 😉

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