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    IMACHAMPION
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    So I went on 3 days of silence. It was something that I decided that I had to do and it was a powerful experience. I took time off from poker lived my normal life, I picked up women while using phone (without talking) ate traveled around and did things outside of it. I also meditated a fair amount during this time around my house. It was an interesting experience not being able to say anything and live in that moment life just went on. When I was free on the 4th day right at 12 it felt really great to be able to talk again.

    Anyway why a new blog?

    To keep it simple and short: I talked about too many other things that aren’t related to WHAT most people here are looking for which is Poker related things, this is a poker forum after all. So from now on all personal things will be self developed everything poker/ meditating (a near mandatory in tough games) will be discussed about.

    Goals 10/27/2015-11/27/2015:

    PLAY the entire WORLD at 600NL, if I don’t have action. No matter who comes along.

    Play all good line ups at 1kNL and focus on 1kNL. (DO not play any lower then 600NL unless I lose 25K). I will be fully dedicated to sticking with this, I have to realize my intentions, which is to cut off mid/lowstakes ENTIRELY and only play in high stakes games and grind a ton of volume on there.

    Hours: 165+ 

    Meditate 40 Minutes

    Tomorrow Poker Schedule:

    4P.M-5P.M Eat.

    5PM- 5:20 PM Meditate.

    5:20P.M – 9:20 PM Poker.

    9:20-10:00 Eat.

    10:00-10:20 Meditate.

    10:20-2:20 Poker.

    2:20-4:00 Review some hands/ Eat Light Meal, get ready for bed etc.

    #170669

    @vars
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    Pretty cool goals. GL and keep us updated as much as possible!

    #170887

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    Thoughts on Stars KOTH?

    #170919

    IMACHAMPION
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    Pretty cool goals. GL and keep us updated as much as possible!

    Will do.

    Thoughts on Stars KOTH?

    Interesting, think it was only a matter of time that happened, honestly surprised it didn’t happen sooner.

    Losing and why its necessary.

    So I ended up hopping on the games, and I managed to get smashed and drop 5.6k within 2 hours or so. It kind of made me realize a couple of things. I wanted to fully dedicate or stick to it, but to be honest a 25 bi downswing will be normal/ a possibility and losing about “20%” within one day of what I set to do made me come to the conclusion that I should probably just play the entire world at 400/600 only and then move up to 1k when I’m really ready, to me I don’t want to have a stop loss day, but I can’t bare to lose 15k or so in a day playing 1K it really stings. Oh and this isn’t to say that I would firstly choose to play the toughest of the tough first, but if there are no games I’ll get what I can. I think losing 10-15 buy ins at 400-600 or 500NL (average) wouldn’t be so bad, and that’s normally in the maximum possibility of how much BI I can normally punt off in a day that way I wouldn’t take days off, be scared to quit etc as long as I feel the edge.  I will stick to this one for sure, I think I wasn’t worse then the player, but I am sure I wasn’t better. Maybe that’s more of a gamble then anything really. I don’t like gambling. I come here to win. Still with the element of losing its necessary, its very helpful to weed out the weak and make them move on, only the strong will be able to survive and embrace the highs and lows of the game.  

     

    About BR Management + Time Management:

    Got questioned by Somebody yesterday what is my thoughts on it since he wanted to have some sort of guideline to copy. I didn’t have a clear or good answer for him, and gave him a rather vague answer of people choosing between 40-200 buy in rules generally, some even prefer 500. I was thinking about this a bit more and it will have a correlation based off your overall perspective of your monthly goal. The more I think about it the more I realize that. Lets say for instance you set a goal for 175 hours a month right? You plan it all extremely well in your head your day to day schedule. Three stop losses and playing catch up will be impossible/overwhelming -> leading to you to fail your set goal. Its an interesting perspective, or .. you can lets say hit the stop loss and drop stake, I do that sometimes.. but really sometimes your so mentally damaged that its hard to control that emotion when you still lose a bit more hmm lets say your a 400NL grinder right? You lose 2k, you go to 200NL I would imagine the losses still may sting you emotionally cause you counted it based off the day, you’d probably have to drop down to play 100NL/50NL only for you to maintain composure.

    Random Note:

    Oh and yes I changed my mind again. man its kind of a problem sometimes.. maybe or maybe not a good thing. People call me often on it, I’m not sure I think I should be a bit more silent sometimes before I write out my entire thought process… but this is what is running through my mind currently. I do think its possible that poker taught me this, that rapid adjustment, I switch strategies very fast while playing when I notice certain things, that’s probably what my mind functioned to, instant adjustment and trying to pick better spots for me to make the most money.. soo losing 5.6 bi (NOT MUCH at all, made me think that maybe I should find a more secure/ better way to pick up solid money// not have days where I have to quit early due to losing, which will obviously be hurting my hourly since I can’t play). Being indecisive is bad sometimes, but I normally let my results tell me which path I should lead to, thinking to myself should I reevaluate or not? According to this loss and sometime to think about it a bit more I think this line makes more sense. 

    Final thoughts.

    Due to wanting to set a decent amount of volume/ higher amount of hours/ scheduling playing times, having a stop loss doesn’t make sense, which in return already sets me up for failure for the month if I didn’t think about it more clearly. As a I hope switching to mainly playing 400/600 will be a better process, my time will come when I can finally cut it entirely, but its definitely too soon for now. One day, I believe I’m a dreamer and an optimist.

    #170941

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    gl

    You have everything you need to move up to nosebleeds

    #171088

    IMACHAMPION
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    lix8 wrote:

    gl You have everything you need to move up to nosebleeds Thank you sincerely, I do not believe I have everything yet but I appreciate the compliment. There is still a long way to go to even reach to that caliber.  

     

     Coaching. I want to quickly call upon to myself for future notes. I am my own main coach after all, all other coaches who help me come secondary they prepare me strategically and that’s all. I call upon myself mentally. Its a different mind state I imagine a basketball WORLD championship where they give it there all, they unite together and prepare a state of mind ready to take on and defeat the other team. They create chemistry, remember lines to take, and set them self in the tone. 

    “In addition to the chalk toss, James has also ditched his “rigorous” pregame calisthenics and body maintenance routine and is instead participating in the pregame shootaround with his teammates. Vardon speculates that the pregame shooting may be helping James to be more aggressive earlier in the game, noting he averaged 11.3 points in the first quarter and the Cavs were leading by an average of 10.3 points at the end of the first quarter during the 3-game win streak. ”  This is what Lebron does before preparing against some legends in the game (the toughest fields around ready to smash there souls).

    I don’t have teammates, once I enter the arena I am here to play my absolute best poker and take everyone’s money. I am my own coach. My warm up is immense and intense. Silence the mind. Walk an hour, get in a serious state of mind MEDITATE for 20 MINUTES and be prepared to shed blood and empty people’s bankroll.  When people try to break you out of your zone, don’t fall for it, it is a test. You do not take this game lightly, humor around this time is not necessary in this point in time. You’re preparing for some of the toughest games in the world in 2015. No one will give mercy, and everyone is preparing themselves for the match.

    Question is who has shown they have fundamentally prepared themselves better and given there life and soul into this?

    Not many except I.

    If you encounter me at the tables. I wish you the best of luck, but don’t count on winning, because the money will come to me eventually, my spirit will arise from the defeats and humble itself over in preparation to become even stronger. 

     

    Good Luck at the Tables.

    #171119

    IMACHAMPION
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    My Face Is heated.

    WHY ME? WHY? Which is what the thoughts that was running through my head. Continuous losing 3 hours in in the mid of frustration about to slam the desk. Only to realize before calling out or screaming anger that this is what I signed up for. Still despite that my face is still a little in red mode. I didn’t get angry but felt it building, I simply just stuck it through quit the regs and played the fish. Still it was another session where I lost. I am okay with that though cause I think I played the best I could and handled it the best I could. -5k again, thing is I mainly focused my battle at 400nl and 600nl too. Oh well. I will take a break maybe try again later today or just quit for the rest of the month and just count this month as an L about -7K for the month and -20k incl. all expenses+coaching.  

    Hmm. This is probably like the 4th or 5th stop loss day, actually thinking about it my low hour makes sense as I swung -5k +5k very often not sure what to think right now maybe need some air for a bit, What are your opinions? 

     

    #171148

    @vars
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    You can tell if you’re owning the other guys or not, right? If some of them are better, then they’re better and that’s all. If you’re running bad and it’s a legitimate observation to make, you’ll get their money eventually. If you can’t tell who’s better then it’s bound to be a swingy battle with non-conclusive results. Whichever of these three is true you probably know at least roughly after playing just a few set of hands with any given opponent.

    I remember how back in Dubrovnik you told me that perfectionism is both a big leak and a big blessing in poker. I would dare to say that it may be time to give a more perfectionist kind of an approach a try, at least temporarily. In your shoes I would focus my absolute full attention on reviewing my shit sessions from the beginning to the start. Review every single decision if needed – the lines you took, the sizings you chose, the opponent tendencies you perhaps missed and the timing of your decisions even. You need to determine what went wrong, when and why that happened and how to never make the same mistakes again. Perhaps try recording your sessions even if that may help. I understand you already do session reviews and you’ve probably already gone over that session. But the result of a full review should ideally be such that you’re close to 100% sure about what you did wrong and how to start the next session without a serious risk of repeating the same mistakes. Or maybe in other words, you should review your decisions so well that you’re not confused about what happened at the tables when you lost those large amounts of money. Just find the problems and deliver the solutions.

    In the end tt’s not about being perfect. I guess we can agree to varying degrees that there just is no such a thing as a perfect poker player. But as long as your competitors are less perfect than you are, you should be doing just fine. Every single decision counts. There is only 1 most +EV sequence in any hand. You may not always (or at all) come close to it, but that does not matter as long as your opponent is more off than you are. Maybe you’re tilting when the edges are smaller and making worse decisions as a result?

    #171163

    IMACHAMPION
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    You can tell if you’re owning the other guys or not, right? If some of them are better, then they’re better and that’s all. If you’re running bad and it’s a legitimate observation to make, you’ll get their money eventually. If you can’t tell who’s better then it’s bound to be a swingy battle with non-conclusive results. Whichever of these three is true you probably know at least roughly after playing just a few set of hands with any given opponent.

    Yeah.. I can tell, I get an impression sometimes of whose better or not, its a bit minimal when playing against particular opponents.

    I remember how back in Dubrovnik you told me that perfectionism is both a big leak and a big blessing in poker. I would dare to say that it may be time to give a more perfectionist kind of an approach a try, at least temporarily. In your shoes I would focus my absolute full attention on reviewing my shit sessions from the beginning to the start. Review every single decision if needed – the lines you took, the sizings you chose, the opponent tendencies you perhaps missed and the timing of your decisions even. You need to determine what went wrong, when and why that happened and how to never make the same mistakes again.

    Perhaps try recording your sessions even if that may help. I understand you already do session reviews and you’ve probably already gone over that session. But the result of a full review should ideally be such that you’re close to 100% sure about what you did wrong and how to start the next session without a serious risk of repeating the same mistakes. Or maybe in other words, you should review your decisions so well that you’re not confused about what happened at the tables when you lost those large amounts of money. Just find the problems and deliver the solutions.

    Sometimes I’m sure of what I did wrong and then other times I’m not so sure..I also get the impression that I’m inconsistent and its tough to try to be it. It was a very interesting month to say the least. I do have a solution to it.. unfortunately or fortunately I will write a bit about it below. Oh yeah and I do record videos.. but sometimes its not juts about playing that particular hand that way, as it can be normal and fine or not that bad.. but there is some deeper analysis that may have been necessary throughout the entire match.

    In the end tt’s not about being perfect. I guess we can agree to varying degrees that there just is no such a thing as a perfect poker player. But as long as your competitors are less perfect than you are, you should be doing just fine. Every single decision counts. There is only 1 most +EV sequence in any hand. You may not always (or at all) come close to it, but that does not matter as long as your opponent is more off than you are. Maybe you’re tilting when the edges are smaller and making worse decisions as a result?

    I am tilting a lot in general, and I keep trying to control it. Today was the closest I came to it without tilting after losing a decent amount, I think its just my lack of discipline. I do agree that every decision counts. Thanks again for writing this. (I answered some of the stuff below your responses).

     What I am writing about below is that .. this month I was talking to Piotr and he talked about smoking and the first time you lost without doing it, I didn’t even think about that… August and September I had two really great months (I was pretty much high 24/7 and killing it at the tables in fact I won’t say how much I made but September was my best month of all time). This month, after various decisions about life and wanting to live a better lifestyle and not imagining me being high 24/7, I went nearly completely sober and nearly forgot about weed since I was enjoying life, but trying my best to beat the tables (I only went out to the club/party if I had abig losing session + took a day off normally to recover so it wasn’t because of that) yet.. I had my worst month in a while (this is also due to influence from many people who want me to quit and kept saying it was an excuse just because I enjoyed the feeling). Maybe my sample of 30k is low, its plausible for sure, but after thinking about everything it just makes so much sense. I talked about lack of performance in lots of spots, making lots of mistakes, not quitting obvious games, tilting almost every session. I kept trying to control it and be drug free… Unfortunately its my vice I guess but my necessity to make it.. so I am stuck in two spots and I’m going to choose the latter and smoke 24/7 again.

    #171171

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    Hmm.. but then I have the debate of do I really want to do this again.. how important is that much more money.. I am stuck in two situations.. I suppose I can find a resolution to meet it half way and cut / hurt my earnings, but I am sure I would have to start all over at lower stakes and mainly play games for a while in a sober state for a while as well I’m probably not ready to compete with all these mental game leaks in my sober state of mind. My projected earnings would shrink compared to the high stake I would imagine. I guess at this point how much will it matter if I make lets say 10k+ (while being sober), and making 20K+ (while high). Disregard what I said above of being high 24/7.. I should not be so irrational. I keep doing that. I need some more time to think about my future decisions. I am getting the impression that I’m more then likely going to choose the sacrifice for the life happiness and hurt my earnings / focus on easier money and build my way the natural / harder way … but still need more time to think this through.

    #171216

    @vars
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    What’s the longest time period you’ve spent sober lately? Maybe it’s worth going on a 1 month, 2 month or 3 month break as part of some sort a challenge? I am/was the 24/7 guy and could not bear playing sober as for me being sober meant feeling irritated by just about anything that did not happen the way I wanted it to. It just so happens to be that playing poker is a very mentally intense activity where things often don’t go your way and it’s naturally tilting to be charged in terms of cold hard cash for every mistake you make. When sober, that’s not as easy for me to deal with. And that causes performance issues. And then, of course, there’s that unexplainable creativity and revelations about the game when you’re high – and that feels like something that’s very difficult to substitute. Yet I know for myself that I’ve rarely if ever given myself the chance to reach roughly the same state in a more “natural” way. Perhaps if you spend long enough time to actually have a good point of reference for comparison, you may become just as satisfied with your play when sober.

    I’ve gone on a 3 month challenge where I’ve quit cigarettes, weed and alcohol. It’s day 3 currently, I’m feeling like shit and am very irritated and irritatable, life seems dull and poker seems frustrating. Yet in a way I feel so much better because everything seems more real. I also feel incomparably better physically, and that should also be playing a role in how I perform at the tables. Which I’m not even doing that bad, surprisingly. It seems that I’m way more prone to tilt though, but because I’ve worked so much on my game lately it results less in pure spew than it does in interesting semi-justified moves that could work out because of some reasons. Motivation to play will also be a challenging issue because poker seems less interesting now. Well, It’s not ideal but if I manage to survive the beginning I can have a real shot at being at my best possible state throughout my poker career, which probably would be that of a sober mind. I guess that all I’m saying would be that whichever path you choose you should roughly know what the other path is like or could turn out to be like. Perhaps taking a longer break may give you a better view of what it would actually mean for your poker career not to be high 24/7. But ok, I somehow assumed unjustifiably that you have not had such a period lately, which I just don’t know, lol. Sorry. 

    #171217

    IMACHAMPION
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    What’s the longest time period you’ve spent sober lately? Maybe it’s worth going on a 1 month, 2 month or 3 month break as part of some sort a challenge? I am/was the 24/7 guy and could not bear playing sober as for me being sober meant feeling irritated by just about anything that did not happen the way I wanted it to. It just so happens to be that playing poker is a very mentally intense activity where things often don’t go your way and it’s naturally tilting to be charged in terms of cold hard cash for every mistake you make. When sober, that’s not as easy for me to deal with. And that causes performance issues. And then, of course, there’s that unexplainable creativity and revelations about the game when you’re high – and that feels like something that’s very difficult to substitute. Yet I know for myself that I’ve rarely if ever given myself the chance to reach roughly the same state in a more “natural” way. Perhaps if you spend long enough time to actually have a good point of reference for comparison, you may become just as satisfied with your play when sober.

    I’ve gone on a 3 month challenge where I’ve quit cigarettes, weed and alcohol. It’s day 3 currently, I’m feeling like shit and am very irritated and irritatable, life seems dull and poker seems frustrating. Yet in a way I feel so much better because everything seems more real. I also feel incomparably better physically, and that should also be playing a role in how I perform at the tables. Which I’m not even doing that bad, surprisingly. It seems that I’m way more prone to tilt though, but because I’ve worked so much on my game lately it results less in pure spew than it does in interesting semi-justified moves that could work out because of some reasons. Motivation to play will also be a challenging issue because poker seems less interesting now. Well, It’s not ideal but if I manage to survive the beginning I can have a real shot at being at my best possible state throughout my poker career, which probably would be that of a sober mind. I guess that all I’m saying would be that whichever path you choose you should roughly know what the other path is like or could turn out to be like. Perhaps taking a longer break may give you a better view of what it would actually mean for your poker career not to be high 24/7. But ok, I somehow assumed unjustifiably that you have not had such a period lately, which I just don’t know, lol. Sorry.

    Completely clean from drinking/smoking? Maybe 1 or 2 weeks. While playing Poker most of my sessions this month was playing sober. I do agree with you in a lot of these things.. I think I will make a change. I was really thinking about this yesterday and today… and you are 100% spot on with a lot of these things. Such as performance issues. I tried to replace it with meditation, remembering about the moment, getting in the zone etc. Before my warm up consisted of eating smoking weed and then going to the tables. Whenever I felt like I was losing the zone I would just smoke another bowl then continue performing. I suppose in a sober state of mind that is not plausible, it has to be mentally trained. I am nearly drug free and for alcohol it never was a problem, I don’t drink much and I don’t enjoy it too much its normally a recreational activity. Actually this month I was so disappointed with the results… Having a losing month really makes you think. I really do think its possible that because I chose to stop my mind isn’t entirely use to it and poker isn’t that great as well. I don’t know but then there are peaks where I felt like I did well, and then others rewinding where I felt like I didn’t. I do think it is an inconsistency in performance/ more prone to tilt issue. I would recall in my head the amount of times I tilted and it was a heavy #. Although I do love my life much more without relying on those things in many ways but I do like money as well. I guess Love my life and then LIKE money, is the answer to what I’m looking for and what I been really trying to think through yesterday. More then likely I will approach poker in the sober state of mind and try to reclaim my throne from the begin (challenge people at 200 mainly and move my way up the rankings comfortably while beating people playing sober). I am sure in the long term it will be better for the both of us! Thanks for the input 😉 I think Poker is such a high intensity game sometimes that some of the people like us can’t cope without drugs/cigarettes/alcohol, but it means we should try anyways. Good luck on your 3 month challenge my friend.

    #171282

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    So Steven I think it’s time for me to C you out again. Simply because you can write all this long post analyzing here and there about this and that but in the end things are somewhat simple as fair as I understood.

    I told you already in Dubrovnik. There are 2 perspectives: businesses and social view.

    Smoke weed if you are keen on taking poker as a businesses(again play your best,climb up increase your hourly etc.). Keep in mind you don’t need to be stoned 24/7. You are basically smoking only when you are ”doing your job” which means strictly no weed when you have your private time.

    Pros: You make a sacriface for your social life and health for making the most money out of poker. It stands because online poker isn’t really a long term economy but rather an economy where you want to get the most out of it in the shortest amount possible.

    Cons:  You have no clear idea what being professional about this game means and your ”consistently changing opinion mindset”

    Option 2 is cut out weed and become a hobby smoker if you wish so.

    Pros: Better social life and health.

    Cons: Sacrifice your hourly.  

    Conclusion: EASY, SOLUTION 2. WHY? Because you were never really professional about this game so why now pretend to do so? Accept that you are person who is looking for himself and just has a thing with poker. Like a fuck girlfriend but you don’t wanna marry here. You waste so much money in your whole career being unprofessional that if you take another 6months to learn it the proper way(sober), it just can harm you.

    It’s all about discipline and determination which are both part of being a good professional and you just don’t have it currently. Accept it and move on/try to improve this.

    Please don’t get offended if my language was harsh but you know I really want you the best and I would be extremely happy to sit back in front of my monitor, grab out popcorn and a beer and railbird my friend Steven playing WCGRider. But till then there is a long way and a lot of work not necessarily on your technical game but also A LOT on the PSYCHOLOGICAL PART. GL to you!

    #171313

    IMACHAMPION
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    @Hans.. Reading this I can’t seem to understand what you are telling me to do or your advice is on the opinion of this. 

    On one side you tell me to smoke on the other side you say to only do it while playing, but then on the other side you said to choose option 2 (which is to go completely sober, but you said it would stunt me for 6 months).
    I appreciate your harsh criticism but i’m a bit confused.

     

    #171315

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    Oh sorry if I didn’t make myself clear. I was just saying that you still have to options. I just think one is better and that’s option 2.

    I mean I made my decision/suggestion based on knowing/talking to you and following your blog. That’s why I showed/explained to you 2 options, so you can realize what is needed for each suggestion. And given the fact that you were/are very struggling with your poker professionalism(discipline, determination, commitment) during your career there is no point in considering option 1(again talking mid-long term) and so only option 2 is possible. That’s why I said it’s easy unless you prove to me that you are somehow very professional and could stand the requirements for option 1.

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